The Path & Road Ahead

Gibusu (Gips)

2010-07-23T16:01:00.005+08:00

My itunes has been playing this song, over and over again. Gibusu by Shiina Ringo.

Totally love this sad love song. Somehow it really relates to me now. I'm tearing whenever i hear it. I hope this pain will go away soon. I wish i could be alone and cry my heart out. I miss him......

"Gibusu" by Shiina Ringo
Lyrics: Shiina Ringo
Composer: Shiina Ringo
From the album "Shouso SUTORIPPU"

You always want to take pictures
but I always hate that
because if I were a picture
I'd become old, wouldn't I?
You always say "forever"
but I always hate that
because if our love cools
then even that would be a lie.

don't you think?  I wanna be with you
right here
for ever and ever and ever.
No one knows what tomorrow will bring
so hold me tight.

Hold me tight, darling.

You always want to shrink away
and that always makes me happy
because it's like Kurt
and that would make me Courtney

don't you think?

I wanna be with you
come by my side
more, more, more.
Let's forget about yesterday.
Hold me tight, darling.
April has come again; remember that same day

don't you think?  I wanna be with you
right here
for ever and ever and ever.
No one knows what tomorrow will bring
so hold me tight.

I wanna be with you
come by my side
more, more, more.
Let's forget about yesterday.
Hold me tight, darling.
April has come again; remember that same day

anata wa sugu ni shashin o toritagaru
atashi wa itsu mo sore o iyagaru no
datte shashin ni nacchaeba
atashi ga furuku naru ja nai
anata wa sugu ni zettai nado to iu
atashi wa itsu mo sore o iyagaru no
datte samete shimacchaeba
sore sura uso ni naru janai

don't you think?  i wanna be with you
koko ni ite
zutto zutto zutto
ashita no koto wa wakaranai
dakara gyutto shite ite ne

gyutto shite ite ne DAARIN

anata wa sugu ni ijikete misetagaru
atashi wa itsu mo sore o yorokobu no
datte KAATO mitai dakara
atashi ga KOOTONII ja nai

don't you think?

i wanna be with you
soba ni kite
motto motto motto
kinou no koto wa wasurechaou
soshite gyutto shite ite ne
gyutto shite ite ne DAARIN
mata shigatsu ga kita yo onaji hi no koto o omoidashite

don't you think?  i wanna be with you
koko ni ite
zutto zutto zutto
ashita no koto wa wakaranai
dakara gyutto shite ite ne

i wanna be with you
soba ni kite
motto motto motto
kinou no koto wa wasurechaou
soshite gyutto shite ite ne
gyutto shite ite ne DAARIN
mata shigatsu ga kita yo onaji hi no koto o omoidashite

Good Food & Company

2009-04-01T23:58:00.004+08:00

Met up with a good old friend, J during the weekend. It’s been a while since I saw him as he lives and works in Kuching. Befriended him while I was working in KLCC few years back and although we changed jobs and moved away, fortunately we managed to maintain this friendship ever since then.

Oh.. To anyone who knows me, he’s the one who sold me my lil’ kelisa. So it was kind of nostalgic for him, sitting in his ‘ex’ car, being driven by its new owner. Nevertheless, he slept most of the way from Summit Hotel to Pyramids.

So after coffee, some laughs and short walks down memory lane, it was time for dinner. As the both of us love Jap Food, it wasn’t any surprise when we decided to eat at Zen.

The atmosphere was nice. Cozy and quiet. The manager was friendly, recommending the restaurant’s specialties and giving opinions on what to try. I decided on the Saba Shioyaki and a plate of Spider Maki while J ordered the Unagi & Sashimi Set.

Food was alright, nothing spectacular and special. But we were full, satisfied and happy.

However, towards the end, waitresses kept coming over to clear our half empty plates while we were still trying to finish the remnants of whatever that’s left. J was getting a lil’ irritated and annoyed so we paid the bill and left.

We window-shopped a lil’ to help with digestion before his 2^nd round of gatherings with his friends.

All in all, a day with good food and great company is always a blessed day. Good friends are hard to come by.

Friends...

2009-03-02T18:22:00.003+08:00

I hate being overly emo. I hate being angry, frustrated and sad at the same time. I especially hate it when someone accuses me of something which I did not do and did not intend to do.

Argh….

Can you have a good friend of the opposite sex and yet not develop romantic feelings for each other?

Yes! You Can… I’ve always believed in platonic relationships and I have great guy friends who are just good friends.

However, along the way, you still come across people who can’t keep their crazy hormones intact. Anything that you say or do can be misinterpreted as signals to lead them on. And they blame you for that! They blame you for playing them out and treating them like fools. (wtf…….)

OMG!!! Come on… I’ve flirted and I’ve lead people on in the past. So I know my SIGNALS!!! And I don’t appreciate it when people accuse me of sending out signals in which I didn’t.

For the 2nd time around, I’ve already made sure that the line was drawn clearly and have stopped treating the ‘victim’ as my good friend. I’m not going to repeat the ‘mistake’ which I’ve made. Once bitten twice shy…. And yet… it still managed to turn around and bite me in the @ss…. AGAIN…. Am I stupid or what….

Argh….. How frustrating is that!!!! And the blame is on me again!!!... How can this be?? F**k It…. I’m just going to ignore and carry on with my life.

Gosh… I don’t need such a dramatic episode right now and my life as it is, is already interesting enough.

For overly sensitive people like these, where do we draw the line?

Can we be concerned about a good friend without it being misunderstood as something more?
Can normal friendly gestures be presumed as giving out misleading signals?

You go out for a drink with your friend and talk about everything under the sky. Normal…..
You complain about your life, friends, partner and family to your friend. Normal…
You have lunch, dinner together when you get a chance. Normal…
You remember their birthday. Normal…
You don’t pretend and just be yourself. You cry, laugh and go crazy. Normal…
You plan for trips and gatherings together with friends. Normal…

Aren’t those normal things good friends do regardless of what sex you are??

Come on… there are no hidden meanings and messages when I do all these….. I just appreciate and treat you as a good friend of mine.

So stop saying that you find yourself stupid and pathetic.
So stop saying that I’ve given you false hope and attention.
So stop saying that you are devastated and dejected.
So stop saying things to try and make me feel guilty for the things I didn’t do.

Because that reflects how stupid I was in treating you as one of my close friends.

Saying those things will not make me feel guilty… but angry. I’m past the point of feeling guilty because I know I did not do anything whatsoever that was wrong.

And I am not SORRY.

MoMo*Chin

It's SUMMER !!!

2009-02-19T19:16:00.002+08:00

I’m back from HIBERNATION! Or should I say back from being just LAZY.

My initial plan of posting one entry every week, as you can see has not been accomplished at all.

Sometimes I get really lazy and brain-dead when it comes to topics to write. Thus, the absence of postings.

Maybe I should learn from another blogger friend of mine, Artsy-T. She’s fond of posting her ‘favorite quotes’ & ‘short talks’ when she’s busy or out of creative juices.

Probably then my blog won’t go on such a long hiatus that often.

American Idol is back with SEASON 8.

Yes, I’m one of those who love watching reality shows and especially the infamous AI.

Probably with AI showing I would have more things to blog about?

*yeah right *

We’ll see about that…

MoMo* Chin

LIGHT ON

2008-12-17T11:33:00.003+08:00

Finally... i got the album. In fact, i think i got the album like 3 weeks ago. Was suppose to blog about it sooner.. but i guess the Procrastinator in me kicked in and thus... the delay.

DAVID COOK !!! my favourite american idol! Been a fan since his rendition of 'Hello' by Lionel Ritchie....Finally his album's out. And i've got it. It's been a while since i bought an original CD. (erm... u guys know what i mean right?)

And i have to say that i really LOVE it. Reason being that he's plays the type of music i like. His voice is so captivating and sexy.. Oh.. and not forgetting.... he's such a badboy-goodboy mix...

All in all....Awesome ... (could listen to it over n over again.....)

Favourites : Light On, Lie, Life on the Moon

MoMo*Chin

Frustration....

2008-11-22T20:06:00.002+08:00

Am planning a trip to UK next year to attend my sister’s graduation. Argh… money money money… I need money. God is again putting me to the test. I need money to buy a house and I need money to visit UK. Clever me to pray that I wouldn’t be a money driven person! And boy is HE really putting me to the test.

Was actually planning to go with my family and my other half…. A trip which I am so looking forward to. However it’s kinda disappointing as my other half isn’t as interested. He has other plans with his buddies, to join a diving expedition in Pulau Sipadan. A trip in which he has previously included me as well. As I only have enough resources to choose one, I've chosen the trip to UK. For me, I think it’s a wise choice as I don’t think I would have a lot of chances to travel with sis around UK anytime soon. Diving… well I can do that later.

On the contrary, to him, the latter is more important and fun. Sometimes I just don’t get what he is thinking. Can’t he go diving some other time? Is Pulau Sipadan going to disappear anytime soon? Arghhhh....Why can’t he understand the significance of the trip? Doesn’t he know that this is what I have wanted to do since few years back? And that I’ve included him in this plan of mine? And that that after this trip to the UK it would be years…and I mean years before we can even plan to go there?

Probably it’s partly my fault for including him in the plan. And that i'm selfish. Planning something that only i wanted. But he did show interest in it too. It’s not as though I didn’t inform him earlier. I guess what I said has drifted off with the wind. Or perhaps, to him diving takes more priority. Perhaps he thinks that there would be other chances to visit UK again? Well, I don’t really know. For me there’s no point saying too much. He has already made up his decision. And that’s it.

So my plan for now…. Continue being sad and frustrated about it… (nah.. not wasting my time on tat). Save.. save..save.. So I’ll be able to go for my long awaited trip.

MoMo*Chin

GoodByes...

2008-11-17T16:43:00.006+08:00

*cloudy....* @ 6.15pm

Goodbyes are always difficult.

Recently I had to say goodbye to a good old friend of mine. It hit me finally that this friendship would never be the same and that I’ve lost a friend whom I once thought would be there by me for the longest time.

I was disappointed, angry but most of all sad.

Disappointed as I wasn’t told.

Angry that I had to find out from someone else.

Sad that I had to finally admit and say goodbye.

Probably I was too naïve believing that close friends would never drift apart. And that the special connection and chemistry would always be there. Guess I was wrong.

For me, a close friend would always be a close friend, no matter how little we kept in touch. But I guess it isn’t the same for some. Like the saying, ‘Out of sight, out of mind’.

It made me wonder. What happened to the hours of chatting, laughing and crying? Was it all just a passing moment? And I actually thought I had finally got another friend whom I could be myself. Breaking up invisible walls and opening up.

Well…. Goodbye my friend… Only memories remain now.

MoMo*Chin

GREY'S ANATOMY . . .

2008-10-18T20:28:00.006+08:00

*Cloudy....* @ 11.30am

Saw a re-run of Grey's Anatomy few days back. The episode titled 'The Great Expectation'.

And what Meredith said during her closing speech (as she always does at the end of every episode) made me just smile and dazzle at how much said was true...This is what she said..

"We all think we’re going to be great and we feel a little bit robbed when our expectations aren’t met. But sometimes expectations sell us short. Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. You got to wonder why we cling to our expectations, because the expected is just what keeps us steady. Standing. Still, the expected is just the beginning, the unexpected is what changes our lives." - Quoted, Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy.

Just love how the quotes in thier series sometimes just touches people, as they are self-referential, humorous, and yet still an emotional way of looking at life. Something in which many ppl can really relate too... Thus the popularity of the show. (actually prefer greys to sex in the city)

The expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected..... hm... which is so true right?

MoMo*Chin

Celebrating My 2_th |B|I|R|T|H|D|A|Y|

2008-10-14T20:02:00.011+08:00

*Raining.......* @ 8.02pm

BIRTHDAYS are always overated. But then majority of ppl still look

forward to it. Reason being? The presents? The thought of ppl remembering it? Or they just can't wait to b older?

My mum once said...aren't we all suppose to celebrate and thank our mum that she endured the pain in bringing us into this world? Y are our birthdays, days to celebrate our birth and not a day to celebrate n b grateful to our parents especially our mum for the 9 months they carried us in thier wombs n the painful hours of birth giving?

Just a Shoutout to my MUM !!! Thanks again...You've brought me to

this world and I've lived 20 odd years in it. And for that i'm thankful.

I Love you Mum...

MoMo*Chin ________________________________________________________________